Hunny, i dont know if this is the last time i call you hunny but i know that i am losing you now. i dont know if this is the time to say goodbye but tmy heart just told me that we done. we talk about this 4 times already most time was i telling you stuff. i didnt see anything change inside you. i just feel that the more i say the farther we are. you didnt say anything that hunrt me directly but the thing you say just shows me how you feel about me about our love is totally died. hunny you never lie to me before but now you start lying. when i find out you lie to me i feel so bad or i can say that is the worse thing forever. first i think the thing you say is because we fight last week and you feel that i dont care you that much. until now i know that you deside to leave me long time ago. you just make everything ready then tell me at the end. you keep say sorry to me. i dont think sorry do anything. what i want is you told me that you wont think about him you wont like him anymore. but i cant ask you to say that. cause i dont want you lie to me AGAIN. i want you tell me the truely feeling you have. i think you already did from your acting and talking. i was still thinking that everything is not true you still mine. i was just in a bad dream. but the dream is becoming real.

Bebe, you never told me why and how you start like him. what i think is i cant stay with you alot and in the past one month we not stay together that much. maybe he works with you and go school with you. then when you miss me he was beside you. he was just one person that can replace me when we not together. you know you wrong but why you keep doing this. i dont know you really cant stop or you just dont want stop. i do anything for you and im your husband but now i cant even beat a guy you just know for 2 month. its so funny. i do alll the stuff and give you more time to go out just make you >>> me. i think i am the most stupid guy ever.

i dont think i will talk too much tonite. cause i have been talk too much. i think i did everything that try to make you come back to me. but if you dont want to then i cant do anything or anything i did is USELESS. maybe you never want to come back. the thing i say can not even change you a little bit. i wish that when you talk to me dont lie cause i konw what is lie. whenever you date with any guys dont lie that is so bad hunny. i dont know what can i call you after we are not together. i dont know what you will call him after you be together with him. i cant think about this its just hurt me again. you ask me to wait for you. i will say i can wait for you until you find out what do you want. i can wait for you but i just dont know how long i can wait for and i just scare some day you tell me wait for you again. you always say that i dont listen to you. did you know that its because i listen to you too much then i lose you. no lunch dont pick you up dont go out dont kiss you dont touch you go home early ......

 

i really hope what i say today we can read it together someday. at that time we are all okay. we still love each other alot. we just read it laugh then its all pass. hunny i love you.